Cathairs, the universe and everything

"From this flesh my spirit longs to break away.  Did you ever feel this cosmic circumstance was never enough?  Wake me slowly if ...

He never gave up either, and he didn't begin with the same chances as the rest of us. Well, look at him now. I've been worki...

We’re such a silly race. We cling onto our plans and carefully designed routes with single-minded ferociousness. We fear change an...

A lot of contradictory feelings have bubbled up. One of the reasons is something I was reminded of. I was devastated. Haha. :-) Pa...

So what is desire? Hormones? Smells? How about desiring someone you have not met? Is that really desire? Yes, he has done a c...

Why do I bother myself with what your problem may be when you are out there to get what you can? Then again, dreams have no emotion...

[Wonderful art by Royo] Today I am wondering again if you are happy. Of course, it makes no difference what I think or believe. It...

  Hello my conscious self, Reality didn’t just slap me in the face yesterday. It slapped me with a door in the face. Just as I thought t...

I have at least six decks of tarot cards and not one can give me what I am looking for: answers. Answers can take many forms. If ev...

“For all that is worth the blood on my hands is the blood of divinities.” [Tiamat] The path is getting stranger by the day. Strange...

I live a secret life. Perhaps after a fashion everyone does. I live two different lives. One is what is expected. A boring success...

I write poetry all the time. This alone shows my state of mind. I feel like shit. And the more I search, the more I unearth stories from t...

I am so mad at you. I feel that no matter what I do, in how many ways I try to prove you my good intentions, what I get (and what I'll...

You fucking cunt rug. You despicable twit. Thinking you've got everything right, everything fixed. With a few kind words. And I'll...

Music: Porcupine Tree: Stupid Dream: A smart kid. This world hurts me. This reality, this plane of existence hurts me. People ...

Music: Saturnus, "Martyre". It's hard to admit you managed to make me cry again. I never thought you'd be able...

Saw one of my ex today, the one I could end up in jail for dating by age difference alone. Kiddo looks good. Big lie. Kiddo looks downrigh...